Why I am where I am

I was always the girl that had a little more meat on her bones than the girls at school and was ashamed. I wasn't even fat..I am big boned, but to me....I felt fat.  When I graduated High School that all changed for and for the first time in my life I was super active and skinnier than my petite sister.  I never thought that would happen.  I kept if off for a couple years but it eventually came back and then I got pregnant and didn't realize it.  After all was said and done, after giving birth I was 187 lbs.

I progressively got heavier and heavier and I now am bouncing between 297 and 303 lbs and have decided I'm tired of this.  I hate the way I look, the way I feel and I'm just not happy with myself. 

The biggest problem I face is I LOVE FOOD!

So, I have decided to have Weight Loss Surgery. Yeah some people are going to say I took the easy way out. My answer to that is, "Why don't you try standing in my shoes"?  If this is what I feel I need to do to lose weight and become healthier, then this is what I am going to do.

I started my Bariatric classes 6 months ago.  Basically I go to class once a month for 6 months.  In this class I have learned what my triggers are to my eating and how to hopefully handle these situations.  I have learned about Proper eating habits and Healthier Food Choices.  This will be a complete Life Style Change for me.  Something I will have to do the rest of my life. AND I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!!    Four of the six classes were taught by a Nutritionist. She said something one time that made me really think.  She said to stop eating when you are full.  Since I have always been heavy, I'm not sure what it feels like to be full.  I know what it feels like to be OVERfull, and stuffed, but I don't know what it feels like to be full!

 
I have recently finished my classes and am now waiting for my authorization to make an appointment with the surgeon and hopefully by the end of the year I will have had my surgery.